Man often becomes what he believes himself to be. If I keep on saying to myself that I cannot do a certain thing, it is possible that I may end by really becoming incapable of doing it. On the contrary, if I shall have the belief that I can do it, I shall surely acquire the capacity to do it, even if I may not have it at the beginning.

~ Mahatma Gandhi

So yea I really dont kno where to begin haha I have sucked at updates for the past 2 weeks or so, but let me give you the rundown on everything. SO UMMMMM COMPLETELY RANDOM FOR A SECOND BUT HOW MANY OF U USE WORDPRESS STATS. I love it and would recommend it to anyone, shows you what links your visistors clicked but also what google searches lead random people to your website.  First I pretty much almost lost my job because my bosses wife is a bitch, who loves to come into the office and try and run shit, and i do what i do my own way always have, my boss just lets me get my work done without bothering me, but the day she  came in i was havin personal  issues and sorta told her to flake off and leave me alone and let me finish my work. However i talked to my boss and I still have my job until I start school. Okay so first it was work, Then my relationship and I will be the first to admit nine times out of ten it is my fault. Im scared to death of being in love because of the shit I been through and the way my parents are, I seriously fear turning out like my mom :( I am lucky that my man is still by my side and still wants to love me for the rest of my life, and if ur reading this babe i love u :) . Okay onto the next bullshit thing that happen and yea you like how i skipped over what happen with me and my main squeeze lol, a girls gotta keep something private.

Okay so as you can tell my computer decided to crash on me, I fucking lost everything, photos of me and my man, software, website files and most of my portfolio. I mean I knew my computer had something wrong with it and I was waiting for a friend to email me back after disecting my hijack this log and somehow my laptop shut off during the night and when I went to turn it back on in the morning it wouldnt boot, in safe mode or any thing, I tried everything I could and just couldnt do shit about it so its not like I had time to backup my files and shit like I normally do when I reformat my hard drive, which sucks but fuckit noting to stress about lol even Leo was like babe im suprised ur not all pissed off bout your computer, I was in such a good mood because of him not even that pissed me off haha.

OKAY I think im done with updates for awhile, Im tired, bored and watching without a paddle, fucking love it LMAO.  and ummmm switched the twitter plugin for a plurk one cuz i ♥ plurk haha. Im a nerd im currently reading 100 simple secrets to happy people. Yea im a nerd, tend to read alot of self help book, books about life and what people have been through.